Les Miserables

Ok so the first time I saw the musical it was in Cardiff, on its 25th anniversary tour. It was winter. I knew nothing of the story but I had heard some of the songs.
So on the night I was in a rediculously bad mood and wasn't up for it at all. Sat through the show and appreciated the production, appreciated the music, appreciated the talent and scenery. But could not fall in love with it. And hated the story line - said 'they all die or commit suicide!'
And then my mate told me about her love for the show, and another friend said it also, so I downloaded the soundtrack and fell in love with it. I then went to see it in London's west end and feel further in love with it. I'm now officially obsessed and saw it for the 3rd time the other night!
But anyway, before I had ever seen the show I loveddd the song 'On My Own'. Then when I realised the context after seeing the show, I loved it even more.
For those who know the show this will make sense to you - I am Eponine! So these lyrics mean a lot:

On My Own
And now I'm all alone again nowhere to go, no one
to turn to
without a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello to
But now the night is near
And I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own